this new years was the first in 3 years i spent alone here in kansas city. i think that spending new years alone being introspective or just bumming around your city and seeing everything from an outsider perspective is very chic and cool. everyday i try to remind myself that gratitude is the most important thing to have, so i'm in no way saying this in a melancholic or "woe is me" type of way. i feel like being out and seeing everyone enjoying themselves with friends and significant others on nye is a great way to spend the night. i sat at the steps of the ww1 memorial in kc getting a decent glimpse of the city and i was just thinking it was pretty cool to see everything in motion and just happening. you could peer into the lofts or apartments and catch a glimpse of people celebrating, or catch the streetcar and be surrounded by the energy of people drinking and having a good time. i think in the past this would have made me really sad, but like i mentioned i was grateful to see the world in this way.

in that same spirit, 2025 was a good year for me, i got to meet some new people, strengthen some friendships and really hone in on some things in my creative endeavors. i think it's really cool and endearing to be apart of a scene where my work is not only seen but appreciated by others. i won't lie there was definitely moments of anxiety but as always thinking back on memories you hardly ever remember the anxiety aspect of things. i will share a few of my favorite pictures/moments of 2025

hahah i wish these were cropped differently.

it's funny because for 2026 and "resolutions" it's basically the same as last year but just double down you know? get better! do more!

just for myself i'll write some more specifics down to hold myself accountable:

• boss up fr on my spanish speaking and conversational skills
• stop participating in over consumerist culture. invest money
• stretch everyday
• talk to random people
• have gratitude everyday and continue to enjoy life and it's blessings

i hope everyone also had a good 2025 and that 2026 is filled with nothing but the best!